wheres my happy ending...

So I was reading some of my other friends blogs and so it kind of sparked this blog. Lol...

You know I love my family but Damn they get on my nerves ;-) I mean I gave up a long time ago thinking we would ever be the perfect family like the Brady bunch of the cleavers. (though that would be pretty sweet! lol) I use to find myself wishing I was like this family or apart of that family when I was younger. Which I look at it now and realize that is wrong. My family is the family God gave me love them or not. I mean they definitly are some charcters in my family and the relationships in my family are so messed up its not even funny but what am I supose to do about it? I can only love them and hope the best for them. Even though they can make my life a living hell ;-)

So today another one of my friends got engaged and I found another one is pregnant! Man I wish soo bad for that to be me! I feel like im missing the band wagon lol. No but really I want to be a mom so bad its not even funny. I have even been having dreams about having a baby which I think is kinda weird. I just you know want to find that one person out there for me and settle down for the rest of my life with and have a family. But I dont even have a man right now so I just have to wait the Lord will give me that when hes ready. I just need to be patient. Is it weird that i'm 21 and want to already settle down? I guess i have never been average. i feel I had to grow up at a younger age then I should have due to being raised by a working single mom. Not that I have a problem with that. But I feel I have matured a lot of the past few years. going out clubbing and drinking well thats not really all that cool you know? To me i want to have a life a family but like i said its time to be patient....

Well thats it really...