Sad Day...

Hey so it turns out Shawndel cant come visit me...But maybe for my birthday some of my friends will come or something.

So my roomate is crushing on a boy and its really entertaining to watch her interactions and facial expressions when she gets like texts or calls from him he he he he...im not alloud to post any more than that but its funny!

SO I got a phone today yeah!! lol...heres the number 608-718-2080...anywho

Thats all for now...

Hollywood,

So the theory goes that people in Hollywood die in threes and again I was proven this point ... Micahel jackson, Ed McMahon and Ferrah Faucette. This is a sad week in Hollywoods history. I truly love them all. Star Search, Charlies angels and the king of pop! Sad sad sad they will all be remembered...

So i got a message from y friend Shawndel yesterday and her and COdy have a vacation coming up. (Cody is her adorable son) and they are thinking of coming to see me! Yeah! I cant wait I hope they come see me! I have not seen them in like 3 years crazy!

Well im outs ya'll

wheres my happy ending...

So I was reading some of my other friends blogs and so it kind of sparked this blog. Lol...

You know I love my family but Damn they get on my nerves ;-) I mean I gave up a long time ago thinking we would ever be the perfect family like the Brady bunch of the cleavers. (though that would be pretty sweet! lol) I use to find myself wishing I was like this family or apart of that family when I was younger. Which I look at it now and realize that is wrong. My family is the family God gave me love them or not. I mean they definitly are some charcters in my family and the relationships in my family are so messed up its not even funny but what am I supose to do about it? I can only love them and hope the best for them. Even though they can make my life a living hell ;-)

So today another one of my friends got engaged and I found another one is pregnant! Man I wish soo bad for that to be me! I feel like im missing the band wagon lol. No but really I want to be a mom so bad its not even funny. I have even been having dreams about having a baby which I think is kinda weird. I just you know want to find that one person out there for me and settle down for the rest of my life with and have a family. But I dont even have a man right now so I just have to wait the Lord will give me that when hes ready. I just need to be patient. Is it weird that i'm 21 and want to already settle down? I guess i have never been average. i feel I had to grow up at a younger age then I should have due to being raised by a working single mom. Not that I have a problem with that. But I feel I have matured a lot of the past few years. going out clubbing and drinking well thats not really all that cool you know? To me i want to have a life a family but like i said its time to be patient....

Well thats it really...

Im a buy you a drank....

So I finally went in a bar for the first time legally last week with my new roomate Nicole. There was like no one there cause there is like no one in Whitewater but it was fun! Met her friend jeremy and Josh and Kyle They all are really nice. I also got dissed (as usal) about my choice of music which is like way annoying no gonna lie! But then we went to get McDonalds from Momma Kay at that was fun we just like walked up at like 4 am lol...

So I went on an interview with Damien this 40 year old Quadrapeligic man who is looking for a live in aide and hes nice. The job has a lot of perks like traveling with him and free room, cable and internet, and he said hed buy me a car too. But I dont know the care would be easy but I feel uncomfortable about the situation so Im not sure if I want to take the job. Hes nice and he talked to me or 2 hours and hes not a creeper or anything Im just not sure how I feel about the situation. And its at least a one year commitment. The money is $400 a month and its to be there at night to get him ready for bed and to be there all night and etc and help sometimesin the morning. So its not hard work but it is work and Idk. I need to think it over.

I think im just gonna stay in whitewater save money and work more than one job and then move at some point to like milwaukee or like to chicago or something. We will see what happens.

Well thats really all there is. Im going to Kenosha on friday and getting a phone and hanging out down there. So yeah that will be fun!

Oh also Kays dog is staying with us and his name is Bailey and he is the cutest dog ever obeys really well and cuddles with me all the time too cute!

White water Wisconsin population 14,000

Hey ya'll so once i made it to the train station I saw Kay which was exciting! I like screamed her name! I was lucky cause I had so much stuff that they let me put my stuff on a buggy thing and they gave me a ride to the front! Plus we were late by like 2 and a half hours and so I was scared cause i don't have a phone worrying how the heck was I gonna get ahold of her and hoping she did not leave or something lol! So when I finally met up with her I had some lunch and had a philly cheese steak sandwich which I don't think I have been soo excited to eat something ever in my life lol...It tasted soo good! So then Kay told me that she did not have enough money to drive the whole way into the city so she drove par

tial waya nd then took the train in ....I was like TRAIN? More oh no! ha ha ha. So after we ate we had to lug all my stuff to the Metra train stop which we went the wrong way at first then we turned around and went the other way lol... And my luggage is not that easy to carry around ha ha ha.... SO we were dragging it all over the place and it turns out it was only like 2 blocks away but we had gone the wrong direction! But we finally made it there. Then while she was buying out tickets i sat on the ground inside and No joke a security guard came up to me (first off he is dressed in a suit) and tells me that there is no sitting on the ground aloud anywhere in the building lol. I was like SERIOUSLY? wow welcome to Chicago aparently you cant sit down here...lol...

We finally made it on the train and then had an hour on the train then and hour on the drive home. Its just so nice to be here its very peaceful lol.. it took a few days to get the apartment set up but here are the pics.

Well shes trying to get me a job at McDonalds where she works its an overnight position they need people pretty bad but I wont hear anything till next week cause the Manager is out of town till next week. I also am going to Kenosha on Thursday she has a Drs appt and then were gonna open up a phone for me :-) So im kinda excited. and I get to meet her family so that will be fun! I met her roomate she just moved in 2 days ago and were still setting up house but heres all the info for now! Miss you all!

Confessions Of A Weary Traveler

Friday, June 12, 2009, 1 p.m.

Man I'm tired. I should be getting to Chicago in 3 hours yeah!! I have basic

ally slept on and off for all the morning and afternoon and boy am I pooped. I have maybe had a whole like 6 - 10 hours sleep for the past 3 days. I vaguely remember waking up at one point and saying goodbye to Laverne and Shirley lol.

So last night I was reading Breaking Dawn (the last of the Twilight books) for like the umpteenth time in hopes that it would help me fall asleep. It didn't. I ended up having to stop reading it cause it has in the beginning of the book (about 200 pages in) Bella keeps getting morning sickness and they were kinda descriptive. So it sucked! I had hardly had much to eat the past 3 days besides the dinner and my cookies and water and the train is kinda bumpy cause we hit a storm. So it was like I was getting sympathy morning sickness too! I definitely didn't need that lol. I eventually went downstairs and found my luggage to grab some Nyquil and took some so I can fall asleep. I finally fell asleep around 4 or 5 am.

So both the first night and last night I found myself in tears. The thing is so many thoughts and faces and things are running through my head that I cant pin it down to just one person or thing that is upsetting me. I wonder if leaving is causing me to be emotional lol... When Im stressed I'm pretty good at suppressing emotions so this could just be me finally letting some of it out. I do have some things I need to work through so this moving is coming at a good time to help get me some peace of mind so I can work through these issues.

Man, I just want to get up and take a shower. I have already got up and brushed my teeth in one of the bathrooms like 3 times lol. 

Trains have a fun atmosphere I don't know if I could do this with getting a sleeper car. I agree it would be nice to sleep in the sleeper car but the meeting people in coach and etc is the fun part! This train takes a strange route we have been  through Utah, Colorado, Nebraska, Iowa and then Illinois. If I remember correctly when I looked into driving I don't think we would have driven through any of those states but whatever its fun!

When I got to Denver I called Brenda (my aunt) to let her know where I was at. She told me Brittany, Justin and Jenn where there at her house! I miss going to family outings at her house and I was a tiny bit jealous! But i know that living in CA is not an option for me so I guess ill just be jealous they are so close to the munchkins! It also kinda sucks too cause I know that no one will ever come visit me so if I want to see my family I have to go home. I have to spend the money ... not fair.

Heres some more pics of Chicago as I pulled in and some cool houses!

The Amtrak; a new daytime soap opera

Thursday, June 11, 2009, 11:00 p.m.

So while chilling in the observation deck I met Sharon and Jillian (real names). Jillian was headed back to nebraska after having visited a dyeing friend in Grand Junction, Colorado. Jillian was young probably in mid twenties and married (shock surprise everyones married now-a-days ...Im getting old!) she is a nice girl, quiet but nice. Sharon was headed to Denver Colorado to see one of her daughter and grandchildren for the first time in like 2 years, she was way excited! She was an older lady, kinda like my grandma but she had a lot of southern phrases that I've never heard like "bite the bullet" and "whistle pig."

We all got to chatting and spent an hour or two talking before we decided to go have dinner in the dining car. We talked a lot about different things. They both being from Colorado natives they talked about the landscapes and towns . Turns out the town that Jillian now lives in Sharon was born in. How cute lol. We talked a lot about books and turns out we all have a somewhat similar taste. Sharon referred a book called Hawaii so Im gonna look if the library in whitewater has it. 

We ate @ 5 for dinner in the dining car. It was a little pricey about $14- for my dinner. I had a vegetarian pasta which was picolini wrapped with a spinach cheese mixture! very good. But the vegetables were overcooked. All the meals came with a  salad and piece of bread. I think if i would have thrown the piece of bread at someone it would have given them a concussion lol. But the pasta was fabulous!

So we had entertainment during dinner (not really). But the two waiters were bickering and it just got really amusing to watch. We decided it was like watching a live soap opera and we would interpret what they were saying to each other when we couldn't hear them and etc lol. It was hilarious it got to a point where they wouldn't say a word to each otherso they would gesture if they needed something from the other and to try and so it was amusing cause they wouldn't understand each other and they only got madder.

I'm leaving on an Amtrak Train...

Dear my beloved blog readers;                                                  Thursday, June 11, 2009, 3:30 pm

Im writing this blog to you from a train somewhere in the middle of Colorado. Im in the observation deck and the scenery is truly breathtaking. Im on my way to move in with my friend Kay out in Whitewater, Wisconsin. Crazy huh? lol... We have been following the Colorado River for quite some time now. Were in this small town of Bonds and they have this old fashion water wheel that we just passed its so cool and antique looking. I wasn't quick enough to get you a picture though. Sorry.

I have multiple friends from Colorado and mostly people always tell me its so green here and there right it is green but that doesn't really do it much justice. Its more than that is beautiful. You know the opening of The Sound Of Music when they are showing the mountains and hillsides and its all green? Well its very similiar to that. Heres some pics 

that I took.

          

Its kinda cool to sit in here cause they have a lady that will tell you all about the area we are riding through like the history of it and point out animals and plants and stuff its neat. Its neat though its like scripted and so they have some jokes written into the script and the lady just powers through the whole joke and then chuckles and so its kinda funny cause no one realizes she is trying to tell a joke. 

So there are some interesting people on trains. I think they are classier than the people I meet on the buses but still lol... Lets introduce you to some. Theirs little jamie (names made up) who is about 3 or 4. She goes on running from her father on one end of the car to her mother who is on the other end occasionally stopping to throw something at one of them. Then there is little Justin who is about the same age as Jamie. He reminds me of my cousin jack with the big baby cheeks. Too cute! He is not sure what to do cause their is so much going on so he starts on way then gets distracted and starts going another and then gets distracted and so on. lol. Then we have Laverne and Shirley who are a mom and daughter who are heading home from a 2 week vacation in some part of Colorado.  They are sitting across the way form me in the coach seats. they are going to Omaha Nebraska so they have a bit of a way to go as well. Not as long s my 34 hour train ride though. They kind of remind me of ladies form I-O-Way though lol...(music man reference anyone?) they are way cute. Im almost waiting for them to bust out in song lol...ha ha ha...I love how sometimes I let my imagination carry me into these strange scenarios lol..

Speaking of imaginations. I got on at about 4:30am this morning and was to anxious/excited to sleep right away. but I finally fell asleep and I had a dream the train had crashed! It was just the last car and it had crashed into the snack car of another train. I  even dreamt that this couple who were sitting a few rows in front of me had been in the car and died. And the steward guy had kept talking to me like we were really old friends. Weird huh? 

Well thats all for now im gonna try and take a nap.

Im settled...

Hey ya'll Im here in WI just getting settled still. I love the apartment its way cute! I dont have much time but want you to know that I have gotten here Ill write you guys later and let you know my adventures on the train! love you!

There getting older...

So one of my goals in life was to live out on my own for a while and be stable enough to come back to CA and live so that I could be close to the twins and Jack and be apart of their lives like jenn and Brittany. But their getting older and Im just going farther away! Dang it! So Im not really sure what Im gonna do...I mean I know I am not ready to move back to CA part of me doesnt want me to ever move back though. But I miss the kids! Tomorrow they graduate from preschool and move onto kindergarten...just another thing in there lives i will be missing...oh well...