Filming, Journaling and Projects

  Filming at Home

Allowing people to come into your home and film is a big risk you take. My roommates and I rent out our home all the time to people but the thing is, yes they pay us but it is really annoying. I don't like being home alone too much which is probably why I live  with 3 other roommates. I love it cause I can be alone when I want and also have the house to myself a lot. But on the flip side of that I also can hang out with a roomie or neighbor and that's nice too. So I get the best of both worlds. But this last film crew have been for a legit production company. So there start showing up at 5:45 am and are here till sundown. It's crazy and busy and theirs like 30 people here at all times which is crazy to me. I walk out and get these looks like I've never seen her before (duh cause I live here) lol. It's not too bad I get some free grub and worse if I don't like it I just go eat some of my own food. :) the art director is really sweet and she is always checking on me cause I stick around I don't like people being here when none of us are you know? 

Lately I have been journalism a lot. I figured if I start journalist maybe it will help me with my bad habit of gossiping and blurting things out (99% of the time about myself) that no one really needs to know or wants to know. Like who cares if I got sick off of peanut butter once? Lol. It's been really healthy for me. I also have decided to start writing again like I use to back in the day. I miss it. I truly truly do. I use to write for a lot of things like poems, blogs, articles, short stories, novels, books, etc... I need to start harboring my creativeness a little more. 

Lately I have been getting into doing little projects here and there. One project I started thanks to Ms. Tara Pitt she got me stuff to knit with for my birthday and so I have been trying to knitt with it but it's hard I will tell you that. I also went through a bunch of my clothes and got rid of them ones that don't fit or unstylish etc. well the ones that were too big I tried to make into other articles of clothing and it was a partial success partial epic fail. I'll have to attach a photo maybe later of the jacket I cut up for a running outfit and well it failed miserably. Another one that I started was redesigning and organizing my room which I almost get done finishing and than start over with a new look. I think deep down I was meant to be an interior designer a bit, or a merchandiser! Because when I was little I use to rearrange my room all the time when I couldn't sleep and poor Brittany had to wake up and be disoriented cause I moved everything around :-( last project has been me getting involved in some photography/modeling it's been a lot of fun. I did a shoot the other day where they cut and colored my hair it was a before/after shoot. Really neat and cool!

Until next time :-). BEE

Life lessons

I came across this online Thought I'd share!!

45 LIFE LESSONS, WRITTEN BY A 90 YEAR OLD

1. Life isn’t fair, but it’s still good.

2. When in doubt, just take the next small step.

3. Life is too short not to enjoy it.

4. Your job won’t take care of you when you are sick. Your friends and family will.

5. Don’t buy stuff you don’t need.

6. You don’t have to win every argument. Stay true to yourself.

7. Cry with someone. It’s more healing than crying alone.

8. It’s OK to get angry with God. He can take it.

9. Save for things that matter.

10. When it comes to chocolate, resistance is futile.

11. Make peace with your past so it won’t screw up the present.

12. It’s OK to let your children see you cry.

13. Don’t compare your life to others. You have no idea what their journey is all about.

14. If a relationship has to be a secret, you shouldn’t be in it.

15. Everything can change in the blink of an eye… But don’t worry; God never blinks.

16. Take a deep breath. It calms the mind.

17. Get rid of anything that isn’t useful.  Clutter weighs you down in many ways.

18. Whatever doesn’t kill you really does make you stronger.

19. It’s never too late to be happy.  But it’s all up to you and no one else.

20. When it comes to going after what you love in life, don’t take no for an answer.

21. Burn the candles, use the nice sheets, wear the fancy lingerie. Don’t save it for a special occasion. Today is special.

22. Overprepare, then go with the flow.

23. Be eccentric now. Don’t wait for old age to wear purple.

24. The most important sex organ is the brain.

25. No one is in charge of your happiness but you.

26. Frame every so-called disaster with these words, ‘In five years, will this matter?’

27. Always choose Life.

28. Forgive but don’t forget.

29. What other people think of you is none of your business.

30. Time heals almost everything. Give Time time.

31. However good or bad a situation is, it will change.

32. Don’t take yourself so seriously. No one else does.

33. Believe in miracles.

34. God loves you because of who God is, not because of anything you did or didn’t do.

35. Don’t audit life. Show up and make the most of it now.

36. Growing old beats the alternative — dying young.

37. Your children get only one childhood.

38. All that truly matters in the end is that you loved.

39. Get outside every day. Miracles are waiting everywhere.

40. If we all threw our problems in a pile and saw everyone else’s, we’d
grab ours back.

41. Envy is a waste of time. Accept what you already have, not what you think you need.

42. The best is yet to come…

43. No matter how you feel, get up, dress up and show up.

44. Yield.

45. Life isn’t tied with a bow, but it’s still a gift.

It's About Dang Time

So as most of you all know when it comes to my immune system/health it has not been the best the last couple of years. About 4 years ago I was diagnosed with POS, Polycystic Ovarian Syndrome,which is fancy for being I have multiple cysts on my ovaries. This was a big shock to me as prior to that I was quite a normal human being (besides being overweight) but health wise I was okay besides a scratch here, broken thumb there. Lol. So this was a very large stumbling block to conquer. Had to change my diet and start on daily meds to help was quite overwhelming in the beginning but now I'm ok. After doing research I discovered this is actually one of the number one diseases among women and 75% of the time it goes undiagnosed. I believe all women should get tested for it cause it can cause and solve a lot of female issues if diagnosed properly or undiagnosed. Okay, okay I'll get off my soap box now.

Two years ago I was hospitalized for tonsillitis in the ICU for 2 weeks getting out only 2 days before my older sisters wedding....phew that was close!!

Over the past several months I have had multiple incidents where I had to go into the ER only for me to get mixed results. I always went in for the same basic complaint, not being able to breathe well, but each time other complaints piled up with it. For instance fever coming and going, running nose, diahrrea, chronic cough and the list goes on. Each time Dr.s ran test and all the tests showed nothing so they always sent me home with different excuses. I was having a panic attack, I have anxiety, I'm imagining things, I just have the flu etc. and each time I had to go back to ER my symptoms were worse and stronger I'd have to call out of work for a day or go in and just not be on my A game which is bad for business. Than I'd be okay for a week or for a few weeks and than the systems came back. Ugh. Soooo frustrating!!

On Wednesday I called 911 to my apt cause I couldn't breathe or practically move had no energy my heart rate why all over the place chest was tightening up and I was freaking out. Mostly cause I couldn't breathe. I would have asked for a ride but no one was around. When the paramedics got there they put oxygen on me and my heart rate and blood pressure was through the rough. I was admitted into Olympia medical center and FINALLY have answers!! I have chronic bronchitis. So I'm on strict orders every four hours to do a breathing treatment so it will help open up my lungs and allow me to breathe and does help otherwise If I don't do it I go into a crazy coughing fit.

I wanna thank everyone who has driven me to or home from the ER at some point, listened to me whine about how I hate hospitals, read my distressing Facebook statuses, prayed for me and just been for me at all over the past few months. I'm just so glad we finally have answers!!!!

Woo-Hoo!!

Thoughts on thankfulness

When this time of year rolls around every year I never quite know how to feel.

Why is it we feel only once a year we should be thankful for all that I'd around us? Shouldn't we constantly be on our knees humble and thankful for all that's around us? Be glad that you have a roof over your head or some food in your stomach. Even if you feel that there isn't much you do have you need to always remember that there is someone who is worse off than you. Be greatful for every last little thing. For having shoes, for running water, for a closet full of wardrobe, or a family full of love.

Whatever you may be grateful for this holiday season just remember that they are there for you year round. To constantly have forgiveness or constantly have humility. For this time shouldn't be once a year rather than ALL year!

Rejoice in February
Be Merry in June
Joyful in October
No wintertime Blues

For the time of the season
Should carry throughout the year
Be thankful and giving
Bringing Holiday Cheer

Thoughts of sugarplums and Santa
Will not be forgotten just yet

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Big Changes

So it's been forever since I last posted on here. But big things have been happening! I've always dreamt about owning my own business and one big dream of mine is to help others. I've been told by people that I'm very rare cause I'm very pure hearted and one of my thoughts in life is I need to help others if not what's the point? We are on this planet to help not only ourselves but others. So lately I've been in the works of creating my own non-profit company. I'm doing lots of research on it cause I wanna make sure I do everything right and my theory is I only really get one shot at it 1487 S Maple Ave Millcreek UT 84106 I'm not rushing anything you know?

In other news I work for ATT down in Santa Monica, CA and loving it. I've never enjoyed a job as much as I have here. I have great co-workers and management so it makes for a pleasant and stress-free workplace. 

I've recently moved to a new apt in Korea Town and I have an amazing roommate. Who's a great cook. I never realized how uncomfortable I felt in my old apartment till I moved. I sleep better and am more relaxed.

Well that's all for now :-)

Expecting the unexpected

This past weekend was my 24th birthday. And I normally hate my birthday. I tend to be one of those people who go all out for my friends birthdays and yet somehow my birthday tends to be forgotten by most. I don't blame them it's at the start of school so they have other things on there minds. That's okay for me. So my friend told me to just not expect anything and in exchange I would be pleasantly surprised if anyone did anything or didn't. Basically just relax. And this year had to be the best birthday ever. I had many calls, texts and facebook wall posts and it made me feel soo loved. :-) I spent time with my closest friends and roomie and just had a good day overall. I did work but even than it was fine for me. My assistant manager found out it was my birthday and let me leave early. I even had a customer who's birthday was the same day!! Crazy! What are the odds lol.

The only downside to my birthday was that I got sick that night and was sick for 2 days after that.

But my birthday this year taught me a valuable lesson. If you don't expect anything from anyone you will always be pleasantly surprised. Plus when you expect soo much from people it puts pressure on them when you dont even realize. that's not fair of us to ask soo much of others. And I tend to do that alot. But now that I realized this I try not to do that and I realized that even my mood and outlook on life is slowly changing but for the better.

You all should try it. It will increase your relationships with those in your life whether it be you mom, boyfriend, wife or etc.

Love you all!

Man! Life is such a wild ride! Just got my sisters old iPhone so they have an app that allows me to still blog so here I am finally updating my blog. Hmmm well I work for ATT now and loving it! I'm actually one of the top 25 employees the past 2 months put of like 150 so that's good :-)

An extremely good friend of mine Shawndel (have attached her pic) has been super sick lately :-/ so if you can keep her in your prayers that would be great!

My best friend is an amazing photographer and if you ever need any pics done please hit me up! Here are sone collages of his work I've made! Let me know what you all think!


So the other day I was driving home from work and saw these amazing clouds and were surrounded by like 5 different rainbows! Pretty cool huh?!?

Besides that not much. Bought my dads 2000 Toyota 4Runner off him recently so that's awesome!! I can sleep in for work now woot woot!! And not having to take the bus for like 2 hours too.

Well tata for now!

Whirlwind

So my life has been craqzy everything is soo different and things are going soo well. But man oh man! Im one busy bee. Working at my new job for AT&T full time out in Santa Monica takes up most of my time but I like it :-)

Not much to report summers almost over so that makes me sad as another year approaches and I have yet to go back to school! soon Ill be buying bouquets of sharpened pencils for myself hahahha.

:-)

love you all!

This ones for you Becky...

So Im mainly writting this because my friend Becky is harassing me to post again. lol. Love you!!

Well life is crazy. I left Best Buy and now have multiple job offers and loving it! Never thought that Id have the opportunity to have this many choices. I was afraid Id be working for like Taco Bell or something retarded like that. Not that working fast food is bad or anything if offered Id take one of those jobs too. But its nice that Im being offered quite a few different type of jobs out there "grown up" jobs. In the next week or so I'll be choosing which one is the best fit for me. So cross your fingers ya'll. :-)

Lets see so what else is going on? My baby sister turns 21 next week and its freaking me out! made me realize that Ill be 24 this year and thats a hard concept for me to grasp. I still remember when I told people my brother was 24 and that was 4 years ago! He is gonna be 28 and my older sister is gonna be 32! We are all getting so old! But Brittany is gonna be 21 so she left today on a 17 day vacation. First to Hawaii with friends and than to Vegas with my brother. I love that my I don't have to worry about my baby sister at all. She is so finacially stable and very independent. I find me calling her for advice alot rather than the other way around you know? She is literally a 30 year old in a 21 year olds body. She is so strong and I don't think she realizes how strong she is sometimes. I love her and Happy Birthday to her.

Sadly, today I was given an eviction notice by my roommate. She told me her boyfriend wanted to move in so the apartment would be crowded so I have 30 days to find somewhere to live. Crazy where exactly am I suppose to go? I am not really sure so I will figure it out. I always do you know? I am very strong and independent person too. So with the help of my family I am sure I will figure it all out. It will work out the lord works in mysterious ways if you ask him for what you want he will give it to you in his time and in his way.

Well thats all for now! Love you all!

Whirlwind

Well life really has a way of throwing curve balls at you. Recently I have become unemployed not gonna go into it but it sucks (and no I didnt steal or anything dumb like that!). My immediate response was freak out! "Oh my gosh I have bills to pay and rent and etc what am I gonna do?" Im not gonna lie I didnt get out of bed hardly at all for like three days. It was rough. But I have a few AMAZING friends who really helped me realize that it will all be okay. So I got out of bed and am applying for jobs. I already have a few interviews this week!

This weekend I came down to help my mom move. She is moving in with my little sister, she lives rents a room out a 3 bedroom house by Chapman University and my moms renting out a room so shes finally gonna have a nice place to live, unlike where shes at now. Im happy for my mom and sister its gonna be fun for them! Ive been looking alot at my relationship with my mom and well I realized what do we really know about our parents? Like honestly have we ever really sat down and talked to them about our lives? Not until we get older right? So during my teen and adolescent years I really think I misunderstood my mom. I love my mom! She is the strongest and toughest person I know! Shes been through soo much and theres soo much she gave up and did just for us kids and I applaud her for that. She is an amazing woman who deserves soo much out of life and well its finally coming full cirlce. She has an amazing job in management at John Wayne Airport now. :-D Im so proud of her. She applied on a whim and 5 months later got the job. How  cool!

Ive been wondering alot about my life trying to figure out what to do with it where to go? Who to bring along lol....been really re-evalutating my life and all and well I'm still not sure and I think for once in my life Im okay with saying that. Im okay with saying that I dont know where Ill be in hell the next month what ill be doing but the key to it all is well Im HAPPY!

If you would have met me a year ago you probably wouldnt have liked me and been wondering whats wrong with me or etc. I would have worried myself sick trying to please you and make you happy and in the long run just being a kiss ass and it would have gotten me nowhere. Now you meet me and most people like me right away then they start to get to know me and decide from there. But the biggest difference now is if you dont like me Im not gonna try and kill myself and go way out of the way to please you to like me. No one likes a kiss ass lol. If you dont like me than your lose but Im not gonna be rude to you either just cause you dont like me. Lol. I know most of you are thinking why am I saying this. But heres why. This is a HUGE accomplishment for me. I worry WAY too much about what others percieve me or think of me that I lost my way and never really ever learned what I wanted or liked or who I was and now Im finally learning all that and its amazing!

So far heres what I know;

• I Love rootbeer and BBQ sauce
• Im a huge sports fan and LOVE the ANGELS not too big on basketball and I realized my love for football is not as HUGE as I thought but im still a big fan. GO COWBOYS! lol
• I love to sing, dance and teach (teach anything)
• I dont like tomatoes cause their slimy
• If I had to choose between reading a great book late at night cuddled in front of a fire with coffee or hot coco or going out to some big party where i know only a handful of people and everyones gonna get drunk off their butts. I choose reading.
• I could just lay in the sand all night and satir at the stars and listen to the ocean (and i thought i hated the beach)
• I like to cook, but hate dishes (who doesnt lol)
• I love my true friends and will always spoil them because their the best (and you know who you are)

Theirs just a few things!

Anywho life is a whirlwind right now but I think in the end ill be okay :-D

love you all dearly!