There getting older...

So one of my goals in life was to live out on my own for a while and be stable enough to come back to CA and live so that I could be close to the twins and Jack and be apart of their lives like jenn and Brittany. But their getting older and Im just going farther away! Dang it! So Im not really sure what Im gonna do...I mean I know I am not ready to move back to CA part of me doesnt want me to ever move back though. But I miss the kids! Tomorrow they graduate from preschool and move onto kindergarten...just another thing in there lives i will be missing...oh well...