Thoughts on thankfulness

When this time of year rolls around every year I never quite know how to feel.

Why is it we feel only once a year we should be thankful for all that I'd around us? Shouldn't we constantly be on our knees humble and thankful for all that's around us? Be glad that you have a roof over your head or some food in your stomach. Even if you feel that there isn't much you do have you need to always remember that there is someone who is worse off than you. Be greatful for every last little thing. For having shoes, for running water, for a closet full of wardrobe, or a family full of love.

Whatever you may be grateful for this holiday season just remember that they are there for you year round. To constantly have forgiveness or constantly have humility. For this time shouldn't be once a year rather than ALL year!

Rejoice in February
Be Merry in June
Joyful in October
No wintertime Blues

For the time of the season
Should carry throughout the year
Be thankful and giving
Bringing Holiday Cheer

Thoughts of sugarplums and Santa
Will not be forgotten just yet

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Big Changes

So it's been forever since I last posted on here. But big things have been happening! I've always dreamt about owning my own business and one big dream of mine is to help others. I've been told by people that I'm very rare cause I'm very pure hearted and one of my thoughts in life is I need to help others if not what's the point? We are on this planet to help not only ourselves but others. So lately I've been in the works of creating my own non-profit company. I'm doing lots of research on it cause I wanna make sure I do everything right and my theory is I only really get one shot at it 1487 S Maple Ave Millcreek UT 84106 I'm not rushing anything you know?

In other news I work for ATT down in Santa Monica, CA and loving it. I've never enjoyed a job as much as I have here. I have great co-workers and management so it makes for a pleasant and stress-free workplace. 

I've recently moved to a new apt in Korea Town and I have an amazing roommate. Who's a great cook. I never realized how uncomfortable I felt in my old apartment till I moved. I sleep better and am more relaxed.

Well that's all for now :-)

Expecting the unexpected

This past weekend was my 24th birthday. And I normally hate my birthday. I tend to be one of those people who go all out for my friends birthdays and yet somehow my birthday tends to be forgotten by most. I don't blame them it's at the start of school so they have other things on there minds. That's okay for me. So my friend told me to just not expect anything and in exchange I would be pleasantly surprised if anyone did anything or didn't. Basically just relax. And this year had to be the best birthday ever. I had many calls, texts and facebook wall posts and it made me feel soo loved. :-) I spent time with my closest friends and roomie and just had a good day overall. I did work but even than it was fine for me. My assistant manager found out it was my birthday and let me leave early. I even had a customer who's birthday was the same day!! Crazy! What are the odds lol.

The only downside to my birthday was that I got sick that night and was sick for 2 days after that.

But my birthday this year taught me a valuable lesson. If you don't expect anything from anyone you will always be pleasantly surprised. Plus when you expect soo much from people it puts pressure on them when you dont even realize. that's not fair of us to ask soo much of others. And I tend to do that alot. But now that I realized this I try not to do that and I realized that even my mood and outlook on life is slowly changing but for the better.

You all should try it. It will increase your relationships with those in your life whether it be you mom, boyfriend, wife or etc.

Love you all!

Man! Life is such a wild ride! Just got my sisters old iPhone so they have an app that allows me to still blog so here I am finally updating my blog. Hmmm well I work for ATT now and loving it! I'm actually one of the top 25 employees the past 2 months put of like 150 so that's good :-)

An extremely good friend of mine Shawndel (have attached her pic) has been super sick lately :-/ so if you can keep her in your prayers that would be great!

My best friend is an amazing photographer and if you ever need any pics done please hit me up! Here are sone collages of his work I've made! Let me know what you all think!


So the other day I was driving home from work and saw these amazing clouds and were surrounded by like 5 different rainbows! Pretty cool huh?!?

Besides that not much. Bought my dads 2000 Toyota 4Runner off him recently so that's awesome!! I can sleep in for work now woot woot!! And not having to take the bus for like 2 hours too.

Well tata for now!

Whirlwind

So my life has been craqzy everything is soo different and things are going soo well. But man oh man! Im one busy bee. Working at my new job for AT&T full time out in Santa Monica takes up most of my time but I like it :-)

Not much to report summers almost over so that makes me sad as another year approaches and I have yet to go back to school! soon Ill be buying bouquets of sharpened pencils for myself hahahha.

:-)

love you all!

This ones for you Becky...

So Im mainly writting this because my friend Becky is harassing me to post again. lol. Love you!!

Well life is crazy. I left Best Buy and now have multiple job offers and loving it! Never thought that Id have the opportunity to have this many choices. I was afraid Id be working for like Taco Bell or something retarded like that. Not that working fast food is bad or anything if offered Id take one of those jobs too. But its nice that Im being offered quite a few different type of jobs out there "grown up" jobs. In the next week or so I'll be choosing which one is the best fit for me. So cross your fingers ya'll. :-)

Lets see so what else is going on? My baby sister turns 21 next week and its freaking me out! made me realize that Ill be 24 this year and thats a hard concept for me to grasp. I still remember when I told people my brother was 24 and that was 4 years ago! He is gonna be 28 and my older sister is gonna be 32! We are all getting so old! But Brittany is gonna be 21 so she left today on a 17 day vacation. First to Hawaii with friends and than to Vegas with my brother. I love that my I don't have to worry about my baby sister at all. She is so finacially stable and very independent. I find me calling her for advice alot rather than the other way around you know? She is literally a 30 year old in a 21 year olds body. She is so strong and I don't think she realizes how strong she is sometimes. I love her and Happy Birthday to her.

Sadly, today I was given an eviction notice by my roommate. She told me her boyfriend wanted to move in so the apartment would be crowded so I have 30 days to find somewhere to live. Crazy where exactly am I suppose to go? I am not really sure so I will figure it out. I always do you know? I am very strong and independent person too. So with the help of my family I am sure I will figure it all out. It will work out the lord works in mysterious ways if you ask him for what you want he will give it to you in his time and in his way.

Well thats all for now! Love you all!

Whirlwind

Well life really has a way of throwing curve balls at you. Recently I have become unemployed not gonna go into it but it sucks (and no I didnt steal or anything dumb like that!). My immediate response was freak out! "Oh my gosh I have bills to pay and rent and etc what am I gonna do?" Im not gonna lie I didnt get out of bed hardly at all for like three days. It was rough. But I have a few AMAZING friends who really helped me realize that it will all be okay. So I got out of bed and am applying for jobs. I already have a few interviews this week!

This weekend I came down to help my mom move. She is moving in with my little sister, she lives rents a room out a 3 bedroom house by Chapman University and my moms renting out a room so shes finally gonna have a nice place to live, unlike where shes at now. Im happy for my mom and sister its gonna be fun for them! Ive been looking alot at my relationship with my mom and well I realized what do we really know about our parents? Like honestly have we ever really sat down and talked to them about our lives? Not until we get older right? So during my teen and adolescent years I really think I misunderstood my mom. I love my mom! She is the strongest and toughest person I know! Shes been through soo much and theres soo much she gave up and did just for us kids and I applaud her for that. She is an amazing woman who deserves soo much out of life and well its finally coming full cirlce. She has an amazing job in management at John Wayne Airport now. :-D Im so proud of her. She applied on a whim and 5 months later got the job. How  cool!

Ive been wondering alot about my life trying to figure out what to do with it where to go? Who to bring along lol....been really re-evalutating my life and all and well I'm still not sure and I think for once in my life Im okay with saying that. Im okay with saying that I dont know where Ill be in hell the next month what ill be doing but the key to it all is well Im HAPPY!

If you would have met me a year ago you probably wouldnt have liked me and been wondering whats wrong with me or etc. I would have worried myself sick trying to please you and make you happy and in the long run just being a kiss ass and it would have gotten me nowhere. Now you meet me and most people like me right away then they start to get to know me and decide from there. But the biggest difference now is if you dont like me Im not gonna try and kill myself and go way out of the way to please you to like me. No one likes a kiss ass lol. If you dont like me than your lose but Im not gonna be rude to you either just cause you dont like me. Lol. I know most of you are thinking why am I saying this. But heres why. This is a HUGE accomplishment for me. I worry WAY too much about what others percieve me or think of me that I lost my way and never really ever learned what I wanted or liked or who I was and now Im finally learning all that and its amazing!

So far heres what I know;

• I Love rootbeer and BBQ sauce
• Im a huge sports fan and LOVE the ANGELS not too big on basketball and I realized my love for football is not as HUGE as I thought but im still a big fan. GO COWBOYS! lol
• I love to sing, dance and teach (teach anything)
• I dont like tomatoes cause their slimy
• If I had to choose between reading a great book late at night cuddled in front of a fire with coffee or hot coco or going out to some big party where i know only a handful of people and everyones gonna get drunk off their butts. I choose reading.
• I could just lay in the sand all night and satir at the stars and listen to the ocean (and i thought i hated the beach)
• I like to cook, but hate dishes (who doesnt lol)
• I love my true friends and will always spoil them because their the best (and you know who you are)

Theirs just a few things!

Anywho life is a whirlwind right now but I think in the end ill be okay :-D

love you all dearly!

Pieces of me

Ive always been one of those people who can really feel. I love to watch movies, read books and listen to music because I believe I'm a very passionate person. I feel every thought, feeling or emotion going on. The reason I have always loved to sing is because I can feel the emotion behind the music. Thats why I LOVE musical theater so much. Because the ballads in shows are so overwhelming. You don't even need to hear the lyrics you can just feel all the emotion behind it. I believe it is so beautiful.

For instance it is so beautiful the emotion in this song! You can feel it all the pain the suffering the hope and etc... Man I think  Les Miserables has to be my most favorite play of all time! The emotions are so strong and over powering.

I'm definitely that girl who cries in movies or TV shows, hell I even cry when I read a good book! I draw to it so much I love it though. I love that part of me and I will never let anyone take that away from me.

I was watching Grey's Anatomy the other night and Christina said something in one of the episodes that I was like "WOW that is so true" she said how in her last relationship she molded herself and changed herself to fit and be right for this guy and before she knew it there was no Christina left. That when he left her he took pieces of her with him and that she would never allow a guy to do that again. It made me realize that I'm very similar to that. I mold myself into what others want me to be instead of being me. Why should I conform to what he wants when I should be enough? If I'm not enough then he doesn't deserve me right? I mean thats what I think. Don't you?

Lately I have been thinking alot about relationships. What is a healthy relationship? Is it even possible to have a healthy relationship? I mean we are our past right? So then we bring our past into our relationships so unless we have dealt with our past we cant have a healthy relationship right? So some people like me bring my daddy issues into it. While others bring issues of insecurity, unlovability, sadness, baggage of all sorts and etc. So what is healthy?

This is the way I feel alot of time. I totally understand her in this song. I am one who tends to fall for those who never feel anything back for me and in my head I over analyze things that arent even there and so I create this world that he likes me when hes only been kind. So this song is the story of my life. Ive never been proud of being this girl who holds on to the hope of something happening one day when in reality it never will at least not this way or with him. Though I will say I get alot of really good poetry amd ,usic out of it! Im tired of being the girl whos upset when you talk to other girls, getting jealous of everyone, being insecure because your not around, mad when you dont show up or hang out, tired of womdering what your doing every moment of every day or when your not with me. Why cant I be loved back the way I love you?

Wishes

I wish I was the girl who didnt care.
I wish it was me who you wanted there.
I wish I didnt always think about you
I wish I knew what to do.

I dream about you always.
I think about what could have been.
Fairy tales arent real.
Yet here I am.

Sometimes I wish that I could let things blow over easily. but Ive never been one good with emotions and feelings and just trying to let things not get to me or to over think things. Ever since I was little Ive been like this. I dove into my music, my books or movies to ignore how I felt. I learned to express my feelings in other ways like sports to get out my frustrations, or music or my writing. Growing up not much has changed except Ive only learned how to perfect that expression.

Ive been thinking alot about my high school years. I dont know whether I would want to relive them like most people say. I was very misunderstood still trying to learn how to be social. I knew everyone and was involved in everything but I think Im realizing I only did that to make me feel like I was liked by everyone when in reality I was flipping annoying. But Im okay with that I was a nerd and thats my past. Except now Im starting to find alot of similarties between my past and now. Ive always envied my siblings because they get along so well with well EVERYONE they never have problems making friends. And alot of times they have to apologize to their friends for me. I often find myself wondering what I could do different or how should I have handled that differently? But alas Im still stuck.

Why is it so easy for some and for me I feel like I always have to fight for well, everything? Sometimes I really sruggle with the way to react. Especially my temper. Its hard for me to hold back when I get angry about things cause when I do Ill end up taking it out on everyone else and thats not fair!...

Who Am I?

Once a friend asked me Who Am I?

And my answer was Brianna, a 23 year old female from Orange County. 

And he told me that I wasn't fully understanding the question.

Tonight it hit me. I finally understood what he meant.

Who am I?

Its a simple question.

What makes me me?

I'm the type of person who loves others.

I put others before me.

I give without thinking, no hesitation, no expectation.

I'd take a bullet for a stranger if it meant helping them.

I cry in movies.

I love babies.

I dream about my prince charming

I dream about fairytales.

Im always expecting people to bust into song around me because life is a musical.

I would kill for my family.

I am competitive and can be hardworking when I wanna be.

I act before I think.

My emotions rule my life.

I believe that their is goodness inside everyone.

I believe we are all pure and loving creatures.

I believe that life is magical and not to be wasted.

That we should dream as big as our heart can!

Life was meant for us to LIVE,

Not for us to live others lives.
We aren't here to live the life our parents want us to live.

Or the life our friends want us to live.

Were here for us.

To make us happy.

Were here to feel pain and sorrow.

To feel joy and happiness.

To breathe in each day because it is another beautiful day!

Life is beautiful and if your not careful it may pass you by.

Drowning

Going for a swim

Currents racing in

Trying to fight the waves

Back to calm waters

Smacked across the face

Being dragged under

Twirling in the whirlwind

The current drags you deeper

While darkness closes in

Your body struggles for control

While the current has all the power

Your mind tries to regain consciousness

To think of what to do next

Wave upon wave smashing you down

Difficult for you to breathe

Fear begins to sink in

Is this the end?

Do I cease to be?

The water is cold 

While running out of air

Sinking fear from head to toe

Accepting whats to come

If its my time than nothing can be done to fight the tides

Giving in to the water

Let the waves have their way 

Accepting every turn and allowing it to happen

But soon the current weakens

Fore Arms can be straightened

And darkness lightens

The rushing waves tame

Your body breaches the surface

Breathing in pure oxygen

Relief you made it through the struggle

But now the true test begins

Do I take another swim?

And venture the shaking waters

Or do I change my approach?

And head to calmer waters

For only time will tell

Pain

Hiding in the bathroom

Scared to show my face

Tears roll down my cheeks 

Waves of pain ever flowing

Trying to gasp for air

Fear of never knowing

Will it go away?

The yelling and fighting never ceases

Replaying every word and action in my head

Remembering the good times we use to have

Remembering the love we use to share

Is it hiding like I am now?

Or was it infatuation?

We use to make each other smile

But now we only feel blue

I think the truth of the matter is

Im not good enough for you.

Feelings and Plato

Emotions. Thats such a strong word. Love, Hate, Sadness, Hope, it all means something different yet it all falls under an emotion. How do you define these words? A friend told me once why are you sad? But what makes it sad? He told me I was only sad because I deemed it sad. This made me think. Was he right? Can things be seen from a completely different view?

For instance, but your self in someone else's shoes when your having an argument. Do you all of a sudden understand their side? Can you no longer be upset with them? I think so. I tend to find that I have a hard time stepping into other peoples shoes when I'm feeling emotional.  I expect them to understand me and side with me. I expect them to Love me instead of just letting them love me naturally. I expect them to always be on my side and stand up for me when sometimes I'm actually the one at fault.

Lets break this down;

What is JEALOUSY? jealousy is just an emotion of you being insecure. Most girls that get jealous of their boyfriends are people who insecure with themselves. Once you love yourself you will not be jealous anymore.

What is INSECURITY? Feeling your not good enough? Again this goes back to feeling loved once you love yourself others can love you too!

What is ANGER? Anger is a strong feeling of annoyance. So when someone angers you its usually cause they annoy you and then you can dig deeper into that even more. Why are they annoying you? Could it be do to an insecurity you have? A lot of time people are annoyed of things they don't have so leads back to jealousy.
**Now obviously this isn't always the case**

What is LOVE? Love is the strong attraction you have towards each other and yourself. Everyone defines love differently but you cant love another till you love yourself. I think once you learn to love yourself your problems with all these other emotions will go away :-)

What is PAIN? Pain is the mix of all these emotions at once. Eating away at you. If your in pain you need to feel and work through it or else you will keep it bottled up inside and not let go.

Over the past few months I have been on a roller coaster of emotions lately and it has brought me to better appreciate them and life itself. Life is too short to always be jealous of others. To say I wish he liked me or he liked me. They don't so move on. Why wait for years in hopes that this guy will change his mind? Why not love myself and see what happens then? Once I do that who knows what doors and windows will open unto me? I am excited to see.  We will see the light at the other end of the tunnel and see true reality.

My friend has been teaching me about Platos allergy of the cave. If you don't know what it is go here and you can learn more about it its a fascinating topic and really opened my eyes to a lot of things. :-)    http://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Allegory_of_the_Cave

Its helped me realize that I live in my own mind alot of us do and we need to break free and turn around and see what is true reality not false reality. That way we can learn more about ourselves and the world and better understand everyone and what makes them tick...

Sunny Days Healthcare and Welfare

Sitting here on a beautiful day inside? Why? Laziness I guess. Its such a beautiful day outside yet I wanna go  out and do something but what? My mind has a hard time wrapping itself around a plan that a lot of times i end up just staying inside on the computer or watching movies. Why is that? is it a weird quirk I have? Or am I just strange? lol...

The past few days Ive been pondering healthcare. I know this is a tough issue that a lot of people don't wanna talk about or no one agrees on but all I know is that our healthcare system is messed up. I witnessed a coworker get sent home the other day cause he was super sick. Turns out hes Diabetic and has no health insurance. How horrible is that? People need health insurance and need medicines or else there gonna be sick all the time. I mean look at me for instance I'm in debt about $60,000 just from medical bills alone. And when I was hospitalized for tonsillitis it could have been avoided had I had insurance and just gone in for a check up. Instead they sent me a $75,000 hospital bill and when I said I had no insurance they discounted it down to $45,000 oh how generous of them! Where am I suppose to get that kind of money? They must be crazy! All I know is we need change some kind not sure what but we need some sort of change!

I think its wrong how some of these government run programs are well run now a days. When I was homeless and only working a few hours a week I went to the welfare  office and they laughed in my face said making $200 a month is too much for them. Is that ridiculous or what? They said that someone who makes $200 can get help and can provide for themselves. You cant get anything with that. What I find is that the system is flawed it allows for people to only to become stuck on the system where their is no way to help improve them to get off. They have no help towards bettering themselves they wont get a job cause they'll lose their welfare benefits. Why aren't we better regulating these systems and instead of those who need help getting help they have so many people abusing the system that instead the people who need it cant get help and fall into despair. I'm not saying I'm the woman to fix the healthcare and government run programs but their needs to be some sort of reform is all. It wont be easy but it needs to be done.

Self Discovery

The path to self discovery is a hard one. Many people spend there whole lives trying to find who they truly are. In our world we have soo many people and things pulling us to believe in this or that or trying to influence us that only do we discover what we truly believe so late in life. 


“When you examine the lives of the most influential people who have ever walked among us, you discover one thread that winds through them all. They have been aligned first with their spiritual nature and only then with their physical selves.” Albert Einstein


Learning about your true self is painful and takes time to sort through everything youve ever been through in life to determine whether you did it cause someone told you to or because you wanted to. That is what I am going through.


I am trying to find the True Brianna, not the one influenced by my parents and friends but by my own thoughts and actions. This road is a long road but in it I have learned many things about myself I never knew before. 


I urge you all to go on this path and discover what you truly want out of life what you truly believe and I feel you will truly be much happier in life. 


Push everyone else out of your mind and dig deep to the far corners of your brain and find what truly makes you happy? Or am I trying to please others?


Ive learnes that I am the biggest people pleaser and always done what others thought was best for me rather than myself. I find that I tend to me more miserable when I follow what everyone tells me to do instead of my own heart. Its time for me to be selfish and break free of this mold that everyone has created that is Brianna and let the true Brianna come out. If you dont like it then your lose but I am done pleasing everyone and Im just gonna be me!

Art

Art to me is auch an amazing thing. Art can be writing, singing, painting, drawning and so on and so on! I just love seeing people express their love through art in soo many different ways. :-)

So Ive been spending alot of time writing and etc. It amazes me because some of the writing that comes out Ill go back and read it and than be amazed at what I wrote. Usually I write when Im feeling strongly emotional one way or another. Its neat to see how far I have come in my writing. Sadly a month ago my computer was stolen and I lost ALL my work and instead of trying to rewrite everything I lost I started just writing every where I go I have a book with me to write in and Its improved soo much. For me theres something about writing it down in a composition book or notebook and it is soo much better than writing on a computer. I write faster than I type so that may be a factor but I dont know. Intriguing

Another thing that blows me away is lately Ive been sharing some of my writing and than in return my friends have been sharing theres and it just amazes me how someone can be going through the exact same situation and been told to write about it and they will come out with two completely different pieces of work and they can both be soo beautiful and different! I just love the way the mind works.
I love how when poeple sit down to write they could write just about anything or in many different styles. Like writing a poem, a song, a  novel or short story or an essay or etc! Its soo beautiful the way the mind the way everyones different minds work and how there all soo different. The creativity and everything that can flow out of it is just so beautiful.

Its crazy how we write for soo many different things. For fun or for school, work communication etc. Without it we cant do much for communication you know? We need writing skills for life, without them we cant communicate and etc. You know? Its just crazy.

I love seeing and learning about peoples creative side! My brother and one of my friends are AMAZING drawers and anytime I watch people draw it just blows my mind! I wish I was talented at that and Im sure if I sat down and practiced everyday I wouldnt be half bad.

Then theres music oh my favorite form of creativity. I love, love love music! I love how there are sooo many styles out there and how soo many people can take one situationa nd make this beautiful piece of work and not only is it beautiful lyrically but musically too!

I wish I could play an instrument but cant that would be soo amazing if I could! Im gonna try one day to learn to play the guitar or piano or both at least a little bit but who knows. But I love watching people play anything really and singing too. I love to sing Im not that great but I think im pretty decent and love it!

One of my new loves is photgraphy. I love seeing amazing pieces of work. Two of my best friends are really into photography and we went on a trip to yosemite and we all went and took pictures and we all saw the same thing but all came back with amazing photos. And no photo was like the others. They were all beautifula dn we all saw different things than the others and even took photos of the same things and it still was like that.

I just think its sooo amazing....

Strange....

Recently, my friend and I were bored so he drew on my arm and made me realize that I really do want a tattoo. I know most people hate tattoos and girls who have them are considered tacky but I love it! I want a tattoo in like Chinese writing that says love or hope maybe well see....

Writing

Lately I have found myself picking up the pens and writing like crazy poetry music storylines etc... I mean I love it so yesterday i went to traget and got 2 more composition books! I already had a song journal so now im gonna have a poetry journal and a misc journal for writing ideas for books or short stories etc...then also my normaljournal man that alot! lol....But here is a poem I wanted to share with you all!

A CHANGING COURSE

I try so hard to no avail

The changing winds without fail

To steer a course and set sail

Upon these waters I prevail

The sails a tip

The armors chinked

The battle does drag on

Supplies are low

While land is far

The battle rages on

For the crew is weak and weary

For theirs spirits are quit teary

For their hopes are shattered

While their clothes are tattered

For all the blood that they have splattered

With dreams of paradise and beer

In these uncharted waters they fear

That the wind will not allow them to land

Upon the beautiful beaches and sand

Be brave young folk for your time will come

When the last mast has snapped and the battle was won

Stand tall for tomorrow is another day

And uncharted waters may steady and keep you at bay

Anywho I hope you like it! Im really really proud of it! :-)

Ive been applying for a bunch of writing jobs as bloggers and what not so hopefully somethiing will come around! We will see! I miss writing i forgot how much I loved it! :-) Anywho gotta get ready for work so off I go love you all!

The Inner workings of my mind...

So tonight my thoughts ponder a little bit of everywhere... I have been going through a transitional time and its a little rough ill admit but not unbearable though sometimes I find myself thinking that but I am blessed to have soo many around me who love me and are so quick to help me.

I went to church today and found they talked about subjects that i really needed to hear one of them being Gratitude! I know that everyone knows it but I found myself realizing that I am no where near as garetful as I use to be :-( that saddens me a bit. I use to be so loving and giving and Ive found myself to be a little hard and I do not like it! So I sat down and wrote out some goals for me and hopefully in a month or so Ill have a better outlook on my goals than i do now!

For Xmas a year ago me and my siblings decided since the 4 of us are rarely in the same room at the same time (only cause we all have crazy work schedules) so pictures are quite difficult to get that wed take some photos for family. oh course no one in my family can be serious so heres what are pictures ended up being...

This explains my family lol what can i say were nerds and were a bunch of movie buffs and so it seemed fair...

This ones one of my favorites because well my face is silly and IDK it explains us soo well if you knew us youd know this is a greeat example of us lol...

This one makes me laugh cause I dont think weve ever played dominos before...lol

This one makes me laugh!!!

We were looking for Justin get it? hahhaahhaha hes behind the freezer!

The serious one for grandma...

SO recently I chopped all my hair off I dont really have any pics of it yet but I will put it up. But it is very french I didnt like it at first it was a tad too short but it grew a bit and now i love it! And I feel more confident in it and I get compliments like everyday with it! Love it!

Night world!

Im Back!

Alrighty so after a few months hiatus I am back. I have gone through a lot of changes in my life and so I thought for privacy purposes Id go away for a while but I am back now. I have missed all you guys dearly!

So few changes; In september right after my 23rd birthday I transfered to another Best Buy. Best Buy in West Hollywood off of Santa Monica and La Brea. It is much different from my ohter store. The clientel that comes into the store is hilarious at times but definetly entertaining! But I love it! It makes work enetertaing and I truly enjoy my new store. Everyone there is pretty awesome I dont really dislike anyone in the store that I can think of.

So obviously I live in Hollywood then and am currently still in transition from one place to another. I have had a few hiccups with my housing but I am optimistic of finding a new place and soon!

Lately I have been managing my best friends photography career and I LOVE it! I dont know what it is about it or why I like doing it so much but I do! I work hard to help him and maybe its just having something Im trying to work for or just the helping others its exciting. Really makes me miss some of the activities I use to partake in when I was apart of the church. Hes super talented and has a great eye and I truly just love helping him and seeing him happy makes me happy. Seeing any of my friends happy makes me happy. My friend Melodie LOVEs doing flower arrangements and cooking and I use to love sitting in her kitchen watching her work. :-) just knowing there doing something they love is awesome!

***SHAMELESS PLUG***

If you need any work photos or anything give me a call or send me a message! Hes talented and can do any work you need done! :-)