Obsessions...

Lately I have found myself obsessed with going to the gym i go non stop everyday. But I found myself in a rut the past two days. I had been going happily and actively for a while but turns out that no one has faith ill be ready and in shape for the army until like August but my goal is now June. Im starting to find it hard to actively go to the gym when i know that no one has faith in me and is kind of wishing for me to fail. Is this why I am going to fail? Am i determined to fail? Or am I just thinking about it way too much? ....